well, i havent been on lately, sorry about that, ive been busy trying to clean my life up. haha clean up im such a dork:P  well first i started with my grades. i started out with 3 f's, i did some studying and made up all the homework i didnt do, and now i have all a's b's and 2 c's, so i improved a bit. also i stopped talking to vance, he is such a dingleberry  and i also got a new boyfriend. his name is damon and hes so sweet. haha his name backwards is nomad lmao lmao the only problem is that my parents hate him..but i really dont care because i love him and thats all that matters! yaybdjdsjhfdjdjdhfjfdsljkshjkf and also tomorrows christmas eve!!!! so yay well i guess thats bout it. well today, i cleaned everything in my room, and i cleaned out my closet, so now i feel good about myself, yay!!!!!!! mleh mleh mleh llama!!! byeeeeee fknekajh

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wow im actually running out of things to talk about. well, I haven tbeen on here much lately, ive been spending most of my time on vampirefreaks. and now im uploading more pictures to my quizilla account. i avent uploaded pictures on alot of my websites yet. well, i was thinking about starting my own blogging website, but i dont know where to start. i used to have one, but no one ever looked at it, so i shut it down, but if people would actually be willing to read it, i  think i'll make another one, :]

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Hello eveyrone. I feel like writing in a blood color today:] So, I was going to go to my grandmas house this weekend to hang out with mason and my cousin erika, but she has to work so I have to stay here all weekend. I guess thats a good thing though because I have a science test to study for on monday and also i have to work on my project about greek mythology. I didnt realize that the topic was so broad. I dont even know where to start, all i know is the essays going to be very very long. I have to write all of my notes i take down on these little notecards,but im not sure if the notecards have to be in outline form or not. Also im getting nervos because my english speech is coming up soon for my honors english class. every one else who already did their speech is doing such a good job and im nervous because everytime they do something good, i screw it up. like also for the same class next week, i ave to have 24 lines of shakespear memorized. i couldnt even memorize 14 last month!!! well i can, but whenever i get n front of people, i get nervous because im really shy and i start not remembering stuff. Well, i guess im going to go work on my social studies report, so bye bye everyone. :]
-kay

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well..i guess me and vance wil never be...i asked my friend shane to talk to him for me in chorus (shane is one of vances best friends) and i told shane to ask him if he really did like me and stuff. well apparantley, vance only wants to date me so he can have sex with me and then leave me..i really didnt believe it, so i asked vance if he really said that, and he goes..yep....im so heartbroken...why are guys so creul...am i not worth anything...

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 after being really sick for about 3 days straight..im finally better **dances and jumps up and down** i absolutley hate living here...i cannot stnad my parents..they still treat me like im 5 years old, even though i always act mature around them..i wanna run away..does anyone wanna room mate? everyday i have to keep living here..it just kills me. also recently, i think ive lost all my self esteem. i feel like the ugliest, fattest person in the whole world. everytime i look at myself in the mirror, it makes me sad...why cant i be tall and pretty like my friends...

well..comment me or something...bye..

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Current Music: rammstein

can someone hug me please...i feel like hell and im going to throw up...

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well..i think i might have a little crush on vance..ok a big crush. im just so confused about him.

well, he said he really likes me alot, but he wants to stay single until the day after christmas. but he said after that theres a good chance we might start going out. but im sad because im afraid if we wait that long, he might find another girl. also im scared because i have a friend. and vance and her went out before. they broke yp and now she has a boyfriend, but they still tlak sometime. well, i heard that vance wants her back. but she says shell never go out wiht him again. problem. she can lie. alot. and im afraid shes going to dump her boyfriend and theyre going to start going out, which will seriously break my heart into pieces. but what really bugs me id that my friend could probably really care less about him, and i care about him so so much. why should she get him, if she treats him like crap and is constantly mad at him? thats not right...im just so...fdsjkhkf..so nervous and bleh....maybe i should just give up...

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Current Mood: restless
Current Music: none

so...i dont know why im writing this..i guess because im lonely..i hate feeling lonely, but its the only feeling i have left.
today, i went to school
i felt nothingness
i have a tummyache
it hurts:(
all of my friends seem to not care about me
they could always find better
im not good enough in anything i do.
art and writing and music
yes thats all i find interest in
math, english, its all easy, but so boring and pointless to me
i have an extremely hard time paying attention in classes
i just like to doodle and daydream and talk
i talked to vance in study hall
its nice to know he likes me
but wants to stay single until after christmas
im afraid he'll end up liking someone else by then..
but it doesnt matter..
theres nothing good about me to like anyway...

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Current Mood: sick
Current Music: no music...

when i heard this story on tv this morning, it made me cry...if you seen the video, youd probably cry too...imagine..killing so many animals at one time that the ocean water turned bright red...how could people be so cruel? dolphins are one of the friendliest animals on the planet, and no one should have the right to kill them...think about it..thousnads of innocent animals are killed eveyr year for no reason, but they have no right to die..



Heroes Star In Japan Dolphin Cull Clash
By Peter Sharp
Asia correspondent, Japan
Updated:10:29, Thursday November 01, 2007

TV star Hayden Panettiere has been involved in a violent confrontation with Japanese fishermen as she tried to disrupt their annual dolphin slaughter.

Heroes star Hayden in tearsThe 18-year-old actress, who stars in TV blockbuster Heroes, paddled out on a surfboard in an attempt to reach a pod of dolphins to stop them being driven into a nearby cove and killed.

But the six surfers, from Australia and the United States, were intercepted by a fishing boat before they could reach the dolphins.

The fishermen used the boat's propellers to block their way and at one point struck out with a boathook.

It was an ugly and potentially life-threatening confrontation that lasted more than 10 minutes before the surfers were forced to return to the beach.

It is believed that the dolphins were later taken into the cove and killed.

Panettiere, who is a keen surfer and a committed marine conservationist and supporter of the campaign to save the Japan dolphins, said: "It was really frightening.

"Some of us were hit by the boathook. But in the end all we really worried about was the dolphins.

"It was so incredibly sad. We were so close to them and they were sky hopping, jumping out of the water to see us."

Surfers attacked by fishermenBreaking down in tears, she added: "One little baby dolphin stuck his head out and kinda looked at me and the thought that it's no longer with us is really hard to take."

The surfers drove straight to Osaka airport and left the country to avoid arrest by the Japanese national police.

All would have been charged with trespass, but Panettiere is now back in Los Angeles.

More than 22,000 dolphins are slaughtered by fishermen in Japan every year. The hunt continues despite worldwide condemnation.

In Taijie, more than 2,000 mammals are slaughtered in the season.

Many Japanese believe dolphins should be treated like fish. They have been hunting dolphins for centuries and see any criticism of this as an attack on their culture.


****so do you care about our animals? if you do, repost this as "save the animals********

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• my names kay
• im a girl:)
• im in high school
• my hair is naturally red
• im shy
• i love making new friends
• when people talk to me it makes me happy
• ive been called emo before but i dont believe in labels
• i love animals to death and im a vegetarian
• im a pacifist
• i think homophobia is wrong
• i think its wrong to be racist
• im wiccan and i think my religion is something that completes me
• im studying japanese and i know english and basic french
• my best friends are kaylee and josh
• im a nerd and i love to read in my spare time
• im a huge anime freak and i love cosplaying, i go to otakon every summer
• my favorite manga is, little butterfly yaoi, fire kiss, fruits basket, girls bravo, king of hell, death note, and beck
• i love spongebob and goofing off
• i couldnt live without music
• my favorite music is afi, the used, toybox, cascada, dir en grey, utada hikaru, riyu kosaka, beforu, des row, evanescence, him, slipknot, cannibal corpse, rammstein
• hot topic is my favorite store
• i love harry potter
• i have dial up and im usually ready to throw my computer through the window
• black is my faovrite color
• my classmates dont accept me, but i dont really care
• sometimes i wish i was prettier and skiniier thna i really am
• i have no self esteem
• i love lov elove video games
• i kick butt at dance dance revolution
• im learning how to skateboard
• i played the clarinet for 4 years and sang in chorus for 5 years
• im learning to play the electric guitar
• i want to be a singer or an artist
• i have big dreams
• i love my friends

so after that, let me know if we have anyhting in common:)

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